The Babblings Of Nauro

Has to be something better then in the middle...

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 18:51:13 GMT

Don't mind the odd title came from the song I'm listening to.

Man the weather is dreary as I'll get out right now. Indiana weather, gotta love it meh.

Gonna try to get back into this and start going to some of the things on here. And start doing some commissions and whatnot on here as well. As long as I can keep active again xD;

Though a lot of stuff will be transferring to my website once its up and running. Thank the lord for my ex now best friend for helping me out there.

I'm might offer some $5 full body flat colors and or $10 badges. Who knows.

Man my birthday is in 26 days, I'll be 22 D: not sure how I feel about that. Haha.
Whatcha gonna get me? Lol joking I don't need anything.

Mkay, Nauro out

I want to scream....

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:13:01 GMT

I do I want to scream until I can't breath, I want to yell til I have no voice anymore, curse, spit, through stuff, be mad.... I want to scream.

I'm sick of it omg I'm so damn sick of it! I'm getting the 'Here is my life I'm putting it into your hands, its fragile so please don't break it'

OMG DO YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE! It feels horrid... because you know if you do or say something wrong, it will shatter and you damn well could kill someone. I've tried so hard to keep that from happening I've seen so much bad in my life. You know what after my tribute I'm trying so so so hard to push to help save lives I might not meet. I'm trying to inspire and push people in art. I'm so sick of 'I can't draw I want to kill myself' stfu!

Facts in my life, I stopped drawing because I seen it pointless and worthless you know what I was wrong. I should never have given up but I damn well did... on top of it when I started drawing agian in late middle school I fucking sucked ass! I drew like a little kid did, I nearly gave up many times but did I NO. I keep at it and look I'm improving each and everyday so why do you wish to be like me... because you can't draw? Fuck that.... you know you can and if you'd only try and draw and push yourself you'll get better.

I'm so ready to move to another account so I'm not that damn popular bitch on dA that everyone is starting to see me at. PAGEVIEWS DON'T FUCKING MATTER! Get it! it took me almost 3 years to get 10K when others get that in a few months. I'm not that great, I'm not god, I'm not perfect leave me the hell alone!

You know I'd move anymore in a heart beat more so now then ever. But I'd shatter so many lives and I don't want that. If you are a fan of mine come forth please I want to know I want to know why you like me so much I want to know everything.... I'm not like other people I want to know this stuff. Omg I left neopets cause I had a #1 fan and I never seen them agian....I want to change that and know the people who are afraid to talk to me.

The fan-club if you feel like your need to make one damnit make it.... for all I care. If that will make you feel better then just make the damn thing, I'll be happy I don't care for one but its not my choice.

You know I try to move a mountian for so many people... and I've gotten nothing I've helped out so many and they just don't care anymore. Its so sad it makes me utterly mad.

You know what I'm going to tell you something about myself that makes me... me.
I don't trust men due to something some cousins did when I was little, my father was an asshole and didn't know how to be a dad. He dumped me off at other places and tried to buy me love. He got rid of my stuff and pets while I was away it pissed me off. I seen him beat a pregant women, not badly but when you see that you never want to be near your dad again. I haven't had contact with the bastard from years now since I was 10 at least. And he never got it never got that I just wanted daddy there at times... never never understood that.

There you go you know some about me.

I'm calm now sorry for the rant... but I'm sick of alot of stuff. I'm not pointing to any one certain.

Though I can say I've finally done something I never thought I'd do I sent :devneondragon: a note. Its pretty harsh to, I hope she reads it because I'm sick of seeing her and so many popular artist hurt people. I don't want to make that mistake.... I never want to hurt anyone but I'm sick of it. I'm going to draw art that I feel I want to draw so be prepared you don't like it stop watching me... I'm not going to draw what people want to see. Once I'm done with my contest and trades I'm closing them for months... I do mean months I want my life back. I'm not coming on the interenet much anymore, I'm at risk for some major medical risk I'm overweight and trying hard to loose the weight. I've already lost 10 out of 18 my first goal. But to get to a healthy weight I need to loose 53 pounds... its alot but I'm not giving up this time. I'm not doing it for the great bod but for myself.

....

Yeah I feel better now x.x just ignore this. Don't give me pity... I don't want it I don't need it. I just need support, not for anything but the last part. The rest doesn't matter...

<3 Nauro

Adobe Sucks

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 07:04:29 GMT

TT yeah thats right adobe sucks ass....

And so does my computer.

Everything was fine and dandy and then boom some freakin purple screen appears and I loose all my work. Adobe wouldn't let me use crtl+s so even save my damn work.

GRRR I hate computers...

iRant

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 07:31:23 GMT

>.> Warning this is a rant... like most that will go here this is a rant.

I'm so pissed anymore, people, men, college, money... ugh everything anymore. Just pisses me off....
I failed math in college because my blasted high school is too retarded to teach me anything I need to know now I'm behind. I failed with a friend and my other friend went on and passed its good for her not like she did it on purpose.

You know who you are, you don't need to feel upset or anything about it!

Anyways I don't just feel like I should be upset, I feel crummy sometimes and its not any ones fault I just see so many people happy and in love and I never have even felt that. Some bastards have ruined my trust with men all together but one. I don't know its just so fucked up.

Don't say I'll get over it, don't comfort me... mostly if I don't know you. It won't be fine, ok, or get better because you don't fucking know whats happened.

When your best friends get sexual advances on them by an old horny bastard who feels like he has the right its wrong! And too watch a guy who seems to be amazing and so kind cry because he feels he can't protect his own girl! Come on now thats not normal and the fact they haven't been together that long. It gets to you, it pisses me off I don't trust men all they seem to want from me is sex, and my friends. Well those horny assholes can go get some slut and get STDs for all I care. I'm sick of it really I am, guys promise you the world then tell you something and stab you in the back. It hurts I'm sick of all these metal cases coming to me. I'm sick of them saying 'I love you' and they just meet me.

I don't know why I feel so mad, upset and so many things into one. I just am... I'm sick of college and their crap not being able to anything. For chirst sakes we are at a Tech school and they can't do crap! I mean they put people in classes on the same night at the SAME TIME! How the hell do they expect that! Dimwits thats what they are.... most of the school had class issues pretty sad. I stood there waiting for so effin long just to find out I failed and all this shit.

Pretty sucky it is.

Gah... enough ranting for the moment.

-Nauro